It's a NEW day! I'm still pretty bummed that my SD card reader isn't working though.
So no pictures till i go down to Sim Lim or till somebody donates an SD card reader to me! (my previous one was donated by Tashie).
Wen! i bought the noel coal. It's just a hard canvas bag that's really roomy!
It's only $200 on sale and i love it! Anyways...do u still need the convo gown? call me if you do k! =)
Will update more later if i feel like it.
p.s.: thanks for calling baks! even though you said you only called coz you're free. Idiot.
Yesterday's news:
Just a quick update:My SD card reader isn’t working so I can’t load my photos onto the com and THEREFORE can’t load the photos onto the blog. So all the pictures will come in when I’ve got that settled k.
I was saying yesterday that I don’t really feel like blogging nowadays coz I’ve been feeling super sian, and unlike other people, I can’t just spill on how I feel coz I hate being judged. And I was told that I don’t have to blog happy posts all the time, sometimes it’s ok to be all emo. If not I’d be very fake and plastic.
So that’s why I decided to go ahead and blog coz sometimes I just have to write things down, put it out there and then get my dose of therapy from that. So this is a warning, if you can’t stand emo-ness then stop HERE.
OK so here goes…
Actually I don’t know why I’ve been feeling so upset for the past week.
Ok. Wait.
I don’t know why people say that - ‘I don’t know why I’ve been feeling so down’. There really is always a reason lor!!!
I know EXACTLY why I’ve been feeling so down.
I just don’t want to say. Because I think I’m being petty.
AAAARRRGGGHHHHHHHHH.
And you know what else?
I don’t like blogging about it because I don’t like it when people read this and then ask me what’s wrong to my face. At least if it’s online, it’s not so bad.
But face-to-face, I can’t think about it and put it in the best way possible so that (a) I don’t make myself look like a complete idiot, and (b) i don’t make you regret asking me.
ACTUALLY, yes. That’s the main reason that I don’t like blogging about this kinda thing. And then there are people who I see around that read my blog and know that something’s bothering me when and they’ll keep thinking about it when they see me when actually I would’ve been OVER IT already!
And even as I’m writing this now and thinking that whoever is reading this will undoubtedly not ask me if I’m ok, I’m ALSO thinking that the people who truly care will STILL ask me. And when they do I’ll be really touched because they don’t care about what I say, they only care about what I’m feeling.
HOW MESSED UP AM I?
OMG. That is one big mess. And if you know me, I hate anything that’s too complicated.
That’s why, most of the time, I like to keep my mouth shut and wait till my own personal pettiness blows over. Because the worst part of all this is that I do know how to solve my own problem.
I know how to make it ok and how to make it blow over as quickly as possible.
But I just don’t do it.
And THAT. I truly don’t know why.
Ok. Wait.
I gotta STOP SAYING ‘I don’t know why’!!!!
BECAUSE I DO!!!
Argh.
I’m too confused and embarrassed to continue so I’m just gonna stop here in a sort of morbid anti-climax. I could go on, really.
But I think that if i did go on, at the end you’d be bitching about my emosity so hard in your head that it’ll drop and roll down about 50 flight of stairs from the sheer heaviness of the critique.
I am such a drama queen.
Did I say quick update?
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