sometimes rejection does not come all at one shot as a blow..it creeps upon you like some uncomprehensible emotion..the most illusive kind and suddenly unconsciously you fall victim to one of the most destructive emotions ever..rejection is insatiable, it refuses to let itself be satisfied with the voracious amount of damage caused, instead it branches out..grappling at other areas...until your esteem is rock bottom and your real self is smothered. what choice do u then have but to mask it all with a pretentious facade..hoping that no one will be able to detect even a hairline crack that they can crack into. but don't get me wrong, you don't actually want to put your real self in a whole other dimension, you just have to because the slow, agonising process has compelled you to such that you are trapped, taken over, suffering from a dual identity disorder but with such inticate subtlety and design such that detection is practically impossible. every little detail has a pounding effect on your true soul as the basis for your self esteem is built upon the surrounding environment, friends, contacts and aquaintances..every person is a brick that adds to the citadel of confidence. yet one crack no matter how small coujld bring the tower crashing..so powerful yet subtle is this that we hardly detect a whiff of it oursleves, yet it works inside us, tearing us down, decomposing our spirit until we volunteer ourselves as slaves to it...scariness defined..


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